Rhyme (or Reason)

Sometimes I am a World War II decoder hunched over an intricate machine hoping to translate the mysterious codes into something that makes sense. If I am the enemy, why can’t I figure out my own plans?

Other times I am a sorcerer hovering over a pile of tea leaves, interpreting the splotches and stains like a Rorschach test. I need stronger glasses or I will lose the patterns. Is that a puppy?

But most of the time I look to the sky for the writing that I know will appear or the hand of doom etching my fate in the thick clouds. Can the mystery be locked in those grand and ominous puffs of water vapor?

We see what we want to see. We interpret what we think the universe wants us to know and where it wants us to go. Most of the time we are wrong. Does the universe even notice us over the hum of chaotic existence?

Lately it is best not to expect anything. To leave it to the wind or the gods or to something more powerful than myself. The burden is much too great for me to carry on my weary back. Were we ever meant to carry it alone?

The wheels turn and we peel day after day off the calendar, hoping time may give us just a glimpse of wonder, exhilaration, or confusion. Anything beats the humdrum predictability of our daily duties. Do we even hope for catastrophe, drama, or anger to make us feel something…anything?

Sometimes we are lulled into experiencing the mundane and dreariness of repetition, habit, and programmed simulations. Maybe there are those who thrive on that way of life, but I can’t stay there long. If we are patient, wouldn’t the certainty of reality change our mindsets and jolt us out of our slumber in due time?

Feel your lungs expanding. Count the rise and fall of your chest. Translate the thumps of your heart like Morse code. You are a miracle in a curious, fleshy container. You are the bringer of change and the master of the everyday. Take another breath and enjoy that one as well. Cherish each ‘what comes next’ moment as it passes by you. When should I schedule my next disaster?