There is No "Someday"

There is no someday…there is only today.

Someday my life will get easier.

Someday I will find that perfect job.

Someday I will be loved unconditionally by all like I deserve to be.

I had a revelation a few days ago. Up until recently I had this notion that life is one series of struggles after another, and that most of your life you spend trying to prove yourself to the world. Then, just when you think you have reached that “magical” place, you start all over again. Like a light on the distant horizon, you feel like you will arrive someday. But the light keeps moving further away from your view. But now I have accepted the fact that the struggle to prove ourselves will never end.

Someday I will get my finances in order and start saving money.

Someday I will eat right, exercise consistently, and take better care of my body.

Someday I will have confidence and believe in myself.

The point of this revelation is not to sink into a pit of despair. The point is to embrace this unknowing. To embrace the fact that we are all stumbling in the dark. That we are seeking this right path but many times we get trapped in the briars and cut to pieces. It is not easy for anyone. And if they try to tell you that life is easy, they are lying to you. Or they have not lived enough to experience pain and loss. Their time will come.

Someday I will find the perfect place to live.

Someday I will work for a boss that understands me.

Someday I will make a real difference in the world and make my mark.

My hope is that everyone at some point in their life has this revelation. That they come to understand the commonalities of human existence and that we all have our battles, hardships, loneliness, and emptiness to fight. Some may not openly reveal it but it is there. Always there. There are no easy answers. There is no resolution or solution. There is only life, and breathing, and pain. But it is the glue that binds us to our brothers and sisters who share this blood and DNA.  

Someday is your next breath and your next step…embrace the now and know that you are not alone.